Not enough

She's afraid. She didn't remember how fear looked like until it hit her right between the eyes. She thought monsters stayed under the bed, in her old room. She didn't know that they followed her. She hoped that all her efforts would be enough to make everything right, but she forgot that this isn't a fairytale. She hoped, she dreamed and now, she sees everything going down the drain. She keeps saying it's easier than it seems, but she knows it's just a lie that will keep her going. She's tired. She's emotionally exhausted. It's not enough to get her what she needs, but she doesn't feel like fighting anymore. She can't. Right now, she can't do anything. She just drinks tea. She wants a break from everything. She wants a day when she can do whatever she wants. When she can be with whoever she wants. She's in the middle of her small world and it's foggy. And she can't find a way out. She wants to see the sun here. Not somewhere else but in this very place. She was watching the sky, when her galaxy came raining down...

 Darling
you 're hiding in the closet once again,
start smiling
I know you're trying
real hard not to turn your head away
pretty darling
face tomorrow, tomorrow is not yesterday...