Today is one of those days. One of the days when nothing feels right and everything seems empty. One of the days that last an eternity and time turns into shattered glass. If you think it twice, it’s just like yesterday. And the day before. And the day before that… But there’s something different about today. You feel the need for miracles. The need to believe that something’s going to change, even though deep inside you know it’s going to stay the same.
Today is one of those days when anything you do reminds you of little things. Things you thought you had forgotten. Things you thought you left behind. They slowly pile up and at the end of the day, you find yourself lost in a maze of memories, not knowing how and if you can get out…
Today is one of those days when you’re aware that this is the furthest you can go. This is the end of your world. You know that you can’t fight it anymore so you just… go with the flow. Drown in the flow. It’s strange, because you’re usually the swimmer type, but not today. Today the lack of a new start makes you drown.
Today is one of those days when decisions are being made. You decide to give up. Everything. Everyone. You refuse to fight. You refuse to ask any questions. There is no way that you can handle a fight, or any answers. There is no way to fix every broken part of your aching body.
Today is one of the days when you breath despair. Today is one of the days when you feel so alone that you can’t close your eyes and dream of tomorrow, because you’re afraid of the darkness. Today all you want to do is run. As fast as possible, as far as possible. You don’t want anything but to get away. You just want to wake up from this nightmare and realize that is was just a bad dream. You want to fit your face in the curve of his shoulder and fill your lungs with the scent of him. But you can’t do that anymore. You’ll never be able to do that. So, you try to run…
Today is one of the days when you just want everyone to shut up. To stop telling you that they know how you feel and that it will be better in time. If they haven’t gone through this, they have no idea how you feel. There’s only so much words can describe. Words won’t explain how much you miss waking up and knowing there’s someone to say good morning. Words won’t say how much you ache with longing.
Today is one of those days when you want to let everything go. Because you know that it’s just a matter of time until you fall into pieces again and it's already a mess in here.Today is the definition of a bad day.
Cel mai ciudat lucru la durere este ca nimic nu te pregateste pentru ea. Ai impresia ca o sa plângi si la un moment dat o sa-ti treaca. Faci planuri, iei decizii, depui eforturi, dar nimic nu functioneaza. Durerea ma loveste în mijlocul noptii... Sau când ma plimb sau oricând. Am impresia ca sunt multumita si deodata bum!, îmi explodeaza în piept.
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